Posted July 26, 20241 yr You know when you lose loved ones it sucks the joy right out of your life. In time, though I'm here to tell you, it can and does come back. My daughter is getting married next week so it's been a glorious time preparing. Today, my sister informed me and my brothers that she has been diagnosed with Leptomeningeal metastasis which is from her breast cancer. This type of spread is not curable, sort of rare (only 7% of cases get this metastasis)-and the prognosis is pretty grim. I really do not know how I'm going to hold it together. I tell my daughter everything. I hope I can keep this to myself until after the wedding which is why I came to this space to vent. If I was in a tall building right now, I'd jump off. I can see myself at the wedding looking at Mr. Di's empty chair and then seeing my sister and wondering how much longer until I have to bury her. Is there a way I can go first? Then, I see the same oncologist in a couple weeks. I just want to quit going and not be bothered anymore. It's not fair dear Lord. You can't take my little sister!!! Take me!!!
July 26, 20241 yr Author Thank you all for letting me share. I appreciate your concern. I spoke with sister for about an hour. She is so awesome. Her spirits are good. She was mapped today for whole brain radiation which may start next week. Radiation oncologist said 10 treatments should help her symptoms and improve her quality of life. So, here’s hoping this treatment buys her much more time with us. I’m going to let this thread sink into oblivion now. One day at a time. Told her she’s gonna be here for another Super Bowl!!!
July 28, 20241 yr I'm sorry to hear that. I'll keep you all in my prayers. Stay strong and focus on the mission. Your daughter's wedding is very important, and there will already be sorrow because your husband cannot walk her down the aisle. You've already determined to wait until afterwards to let her know, and it is definitely the best decision. Let her enjoy her special day with you and the family, and keep it all separate. Don't think about going before your sister, either. You have a second mission of making things better for her in her twilight hours. Spend time with her and make the best of it. Rather than lamenting the diagnosis, appreciate that God has given you the opportunity to know when the end is coming, so you can say a proper goodbye. Some people have loved ones die in car accidents or other sudden circumstances, and never get to say a final "Goodbye" or "I love you". You will have that chance. Remember, you're a Philly fan. We appreciate those that are the hardest workers, those that grind it out, and those that do everything they can when they need to. Now is the time for you to show the same determination that you've asked for from your favorite role models. It's ingrained in your system, and you can handle it.
July 29, 20241 yr Sorry to hear this Di. Stay strong and spend every moment you can with your sister.
August 4, 20241 yr Author Encouraging news regarding sister. She’s a candidate for proton therapy instead of the whole brain radiation. A colleague of her one doc said a clinical trail is having such good results they have opened it up for all patients and not just randomized. She will be going into the city for this. My first born got married and it was wonderfu!!! Heat humidity thunderstorms and all. Two days before the wedding my second born was involved in an accident in which the person who ran into the back of the tractor trailer in a pick up didn’t make it. They say the good lord only gives you what you can handle and it is certainly true.
August 12, 20241 yr Congrats to the lovely couple, and sorry to hear about your sister, Di. You’ve had your share of hardships over the last few years but you’ve proven to be resilient and strong, with a good support network. Don’t be afraid to lean on those around you, and on us here, to help you process and navigate this latest hardship.
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